How could this be all that was
left of the car you were driving...
Dear God my heart hurts so badly
tonight...the memory and pain
of it all is just crushing the
very life breath out of me tonight.
I feel that I just cannot bear it.
I miss you so much...the pain
inside of me is unbearable...
It is smothering me....
I still cannot believe that horrible
accident really happened...
I cannot believe you are really
truly gone from us...my heart
won't believe it...it still seems
you are just away on a
road trip on your street bike...
back patio and there is your
bike and I weep and the
pain inside of me is unbearable...
We were such a close knit family...
like Charlotte told me the other
day...we had the perfect family
and then the accident had to
happen and ruined it all...
What are we going to do
without you Will??? Without
your radiant smile and your
crazy dances and your jokes
and just your being YOU???
Oh my dear God....
I can't do this...it is too hard...
the dreams...no they are
nightmares...are too real...
then I wake up and you are
not here in your bed...but
your bed is empty...your
room is still and silent...the
drums and bass guitar...the
keyboard lay still and untouched
just like you left them...oh the
silence hurts....sometimes I just
go and lay on your bed and
cry...I look at your instruments
and the silence is crushing...
My mother's heart is breaking
inside of me...I love you my
lil brown boy...I love you so
very much and I miss you with
my whole soul...I will never
ever be the same again...part
of me died with you...oh my
baby boy....what I wouldn't
give to have you back again
alive and whole and safe
and sound....why????
But I cannot question the
Almighty can I....my heart is
just hurting...I want to hold
my lil brown boy in my arms
again and get another
one of your "boy-hugs" again...
you were so big and strong....
dear God how I miss
you my sweet William....
Forever loving you,
Mumsy
xoxo to heaven
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Susan
~4ever Will's Mum~