Oh William...My William...

Oh William...My William...

Mums is missing you so much...My heart just hurts inside so badly that it is hard to even breathe...
I wonder on days like today, how one can go on living day to day with a pain so deep inside...but then I know that there is One...There is God...He is my strength and hope when my heart is hurting so badly...
I know that you are in His presence...I know that even if you could...you would not want to come back to this messed up world....I know that you are in a place of peace and joy and beauty...but it does not take the ache of missing my only beloved son away...
Just know, Sweet William, how much your mum and dad love you...Know that we would give anything to have you back again...And if our love could have kept you alive...You'd be alive still!
Ohhhhh....I miss my "boy-hugs"...I just miss you and your beautiful, radiant smile...your crazy dances on top of the car on the side of the freeway while you were waiting for dad to come with a new tire to fix your flat....You danced on top of that camaro until a Highway Patrol pulled over and made you get down because you were backing up traffic for miles!!! That is just the crazy kind of things you would do to make people laugh!!! We miss you Will, so much!
We love you with all of our hearts and souls and cannot wait to get to Heaven to be with Jesus and worship our God WITH you together again forever and ever!
OHHHHH I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU FOREVER !!!! I just can't say it enough!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Can you feel the love?

Day 2...Missing Will

I am missing you today…just like every day that

goes by without you. It is hard to make it through

each one of them, missing you like I do.

I just wish things didn’t turn out the way

they did…I wonder why it had to happen,

especially like that?

I’ve read that God will not put on us more

than we can bear….is that really true?

Then why does it hurt so badly?

Why is my heart breaking like it is?

Why can’t I be strong and get through this???

I know I will never get over it…like

someone told me to do – I could not believe

it when someone told me that it had been

long enough and I should have gotten

over it by now? I will miss you as long

as you are gone...I will grieve for 

you as until we are all in Heaven...

Together once again.

I am still stunned and in a state

of shock…and I still cannot believe that

you are really gone from us forever in

this life….I just want to hug my only

son one more time…Please God, Tell

my William that I love him

with all of my heart…please…